I can’t believe how much my life has changed in a year! Seriously! This time last year, my husband and I were getting settled into our new mortgage payment on top of having some unforeseen financial circumstances. I know it could’ve been worse, but having a new home, a legal matter that drained our finances , two young children and bills can get pretty stressful. I’ve learned that happiness doesn’t stem from how much money you make or how much time you can put into being home with your kids. I believe we have the ability to draw out our own happiness and for everyone it may be different. I thought I was happy because I had it all. A new home, a job I love with all my heart, children , health, a loving husband, but I felt something was missing. I was missing. I didn’t even know who I was anymore!
The lack of sleep , the mommy guilt, the dirty diapers, and the long nursing sessions…. I didn’t even want to spend time with my husband because I was so tired. My second had and still has a habit in being extra clingy. I wasn’t used to this as my first was always so independent from day 1. I know I sound like Im complaining and I promise Im not. I love my kids with all my heart. I cherish every single day with them even on the tough days. But when you have a child with an airway disease, you happen to be on constant ” fight or flight ” mode. I found myself feeling so negative and scared all the time . I felt guilty that I wasn’t paying enough attention to my first child. I felt so overwhelmed with trying to balance out my professional life with my home life. I questioned my parenting. As a hairdresser, clients want to know your business. A true professional says the least amount possible . I felt like I was a professional and pretending I was doing great. Doctors and specialists appointments felt as though they were scheduled every week. I adopted the negative mindset due to al my fears and worries constantly taking over.
One day, I decided it was time to put my health first. It all started with a challenge pack . I was sick and tired of feeling so lost. I don’t care what anyone says . I know having baby is the biggest blessing in the world. Of course it is. When your second comes around, you think you have it all figured out because your like ” ok I got this ” But I was wrong . Im learning to just ” Let go and let God “. The investment I made on myself that day has been the best investment Ive ever made on myself.
When I first started my 21 day fix program, I told myself I couldn’t do this .I couldn’t find the motivation to push play. I didn’t have time to go to the gym. When I did, I always found myself doing the same boring routine or didn’t know what to do. Not to mention, my insecurities were to the fullest . I was a constant negative Nancy and of course I would never admit that. I had zero time to plan and take action. Ultimately, I kept hurting myself. I had every excuse in the book. When I pushed play, the kids weren’t used to it, so they wanted to jump on me. They were excited and then they wanted my attention… of course they did . You know how kids are. But I stayed consistent by staying true to my thoughts and little goals I set for myself. My kids started to look forward to seeing mommy workout. Then it dawned on me that I really needed to work out before my day officially started. I constantly reminded myself that the real change wouldn’t happen unless I changed. I stopped making the excuses and put myself first.
This is not a selfish thing to do . I believe its essential . Im happy and my marriage is on track again. I have more energy for my husband, my kids,and I found myself again. The balance will always be a struggle. I go through moments where everything is great and then all of a sudden, one area in my life needs extra attention. So i roll with it. I go along with the different seasons in my life and i prioritize whats most important each day. Im not the old person I used to be. Ive seen how bad things can change over night. Our lives aren’t promised and I don’t ever want to die feeling unfulfilled. I believe that when you go through some of your toughest times, its up to you to use it as a bridge to walk across rather than to barricade yourself.
I think this is why being a coach means so much to me. I believe that living a healthy lifestyle is essential for optimal health and wellness. It doesn’t matter what workouts you do, as long as you move for at least 30 minutes and eat foods that fuel your body rather than deplete your energy. I don’t believe in taking medicine to control my appetite, stimulants to give me more energy, or supplements to make me lose weight faster. I believe in whole food nutrition and I know thats why I love shakeology so much. When I first signed up to be a coach, I did it for my discount .But then I found out that I was motivating others to get up and go. People could relate to me . What makes me happy is helping others see that they too can change. Coaching is about being yourself, growing to your highest potential, and simply sharing with others what this lifestyle can do . Coaching is something that isn’t easy, but the reward is greater. Im not perfect. Im a work in progress who still tries to be controlling in my own ways. I’m working on these flaws. But I love myself and I know who I am. Im a mom and a wife who loves to help others. Ive never been so connected with the woman I am today . I love my life . Im so blessed .