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Living With A Grateful Heart

This last weekend was amazing. I had the best experience going on vacation with my husband and had some time to really catch up on my thoughts and talk the future with my husband.

For one, I haven’t had time to really blog as much much as I’d like. Between my new role as a Girl Scout Leader and juggling both of my businesses, there hasn’t been time for much.  On top of that, being a mom and wife is a full time job of its own. I am so incredibly blessed . I’ve realized that I just need to write. I need to write my heart out and share the good, bad, and the ugly. It helps with clarity and knowing it can inspire or relate to someone is just so incredible .

I’m living in this season where I’m truly learning so much about what I can and cannot handle.  For one, I do a lot . Why? I don’t know. I’m such an over-achiever , I know. I like to consider myself extremely self driven and motivated to chase after what I want.  I love doing it all.  Everything I do , I do with love and I lead with my heart . When things get tough, I fall and get back up. I try to not stress too much about the month or weeks ahead. Instead, I like to be optimistic and take things one day at a time or else my anxiety will rise.

Our trip to Cancun was amazing. It meant everything to bring my husband to this trip. For one, we deserve our time together. My marriage is a priority.  Seems like both of us are just trying to achieve our goals and provide for the babies. I do not want time to pass and wonder why my marriage fell apart. I want to live in the moment with my husband and have him enjoy the fruits of my labor too. He is my number one. None of anything I do would run smoothly if it weren’t for his support. I seriously hit the jackpot with him . Him being on this trip really helped him see why i work my tail off.

The hubby and I had a blast. Seeing him smile and tell me how proud he was of me really meant so much . I work hard. I work really hard to work on myself and help others. This was my first all – expense paid trip earned for just doing what I love by helping others get started on their health and fitness journey! It was amazing! The company I work with really spoiled the heck out of us . You see, our lives are changing. I am not who I was last year and I’ve learned that its ok to have several passions.  Our kids are growing, we are growing, and being able to experience time and financial freedom is a huge priority to me .

I’ve also learned through my entrepreneurial mindset that I should never focus on just one stream of income. I have learned that nothing in life is ever guaranteed. You have to find out what it is you love and go for it all while remaining humbled and finding a good balance between business and family.

There was a time I completely lost myself though. I thought I had it all together and figured out. I thought I had this mom job under control. Then I experienced some trauma while pregnant with my second. My mom was diagnosed with cancer. It had nothing to do with me . But my mom is my everything. I’m an only child. She IS my person . Then my son was born with some unexpected health issues and was not able to come over for 5 weeks . That NICU ride was a roller coaster followed by visits with specialists and restless nights. My world changed. I changed. Life and stress became so overwhelming to me yet it became all about the littlest of things. So much of what used to matter did not matter anymore .

All I wanted was to feel good and have an outlet aside from this new relationship I was trying to have with the Lord. Work became just work . My thyroid was out of wack. I was a mess.  I was tired all the time and at one point I decided to draw the line in the sand. No more. After experiencing my postpartum depression , I realized that I was in charge and I needed to do something.

I’ve learned that God only puts things in our lives that he knows we can handle. Sometimes we don’t know why. But there is a lesson in everything. I feel my lesson to this day was to learn to have faith, let go, and let God do his work .I am a control freak. Learning that I am not in control has done wonders for me.  Before this whole experience, I questioned the difference between religion and faith so much. I did not feel a close relationship to God until I truly needed him. That’s sad right? So common though . I have become so much closer to God and my faith is stronger than ever. I do not practice any type of religion yet I’m super spiritual in many ways.

God sent me my babies to make me a better person. I am so blessed to be a mom period. I really had no idea how religious the name Elijah was until after I had him. Elijah was a prophet in the bible who was sent to people to help them believe in God. Wow. Not a coincidence at all right ?

God sent me this incredible opportunity to serve others in ways I love to not only help myself but to help others who are struggling too . I struggled physically by being stuck in the yo- yo diet cycle. I abused my body by eating my emotions and eating all the wrong all while self sabotaging myself. I went through extremes to try to make my body look the way I thought it should look. I went through a phase where I even experimented with substances to help me cope with certain difficulties. Along the way I’ve learned that we all go through trials where we use substances to cope with life without not even realizing it . I struggled financially as my husband and I had some unexpected struggles on top of co pays and medical visits. Being a hairdresser meant that If I didn’t work , I didn’t get paid. Being with my kids mattered more than money. Emotionally, I was a hot mess. The worst part was realizing that I was taking it out on the closest ones I love by lashing out on them and shutting down .

Beachbody came into my life when I needed it the most. I’ve learned that I matter. It is not selfish to learn to love yourself and treat yourself well. Our sanity and mindset mean everything. At first I wanted to lose 50 lbs and along the journey, I’ve learned that I really just needed a healthy and sustainable life change. I learned that I didn’t have to forget about me. I reinvented myself. I am not perfect and that’t what I love about being a lifestyle coach. Becoming a coach has helped me stay accountable in many ways. I found structure in not just my life, but in my days. I have been able to improve our marriage, communicate and understand my husband better,  work on my mindset, teach my family healthier habits, and meet some incredible people. It’s so much more than just a fitness journey. Its about living a healthier and fulfilling life all while dreaming big and going after what you want. You should never be told your dreams are too big. You should never feel guilty for chasing that one thing that sets your soul on fire.

I am passionate about health and fitness because feeling healthy makes me feel whole. Being healthy makes me have more energy and continue striving to be a better version of myself than I was yesterday . It is my platform to meet other people and offer them a solution . Through my journey as a mom with thyroid nodules and a goiter at only 31, I’ve learned that I should never take my health and mindset for granted. Life is beautiful . Its about quality. If you don’t feel good, it shows. I want to have energy for my kids. I want to keep up with them and be around for as long as I can. Not just that, I want to teach them these incredible and sustainable habits that they can grow up with. Its not about perfection. Its about finding a healthy balance and eating for fuel . Its about LIVING and being present in the moment all while showing yourself some grace.

Becoming a lifestyle coach has added to my passion for helping others. I get to do what I love for a living. Coaching gives me a sense of purpose. I want to show my kids that its ok to be an entrepreneur and chase your dreams. You do not need to go out there and do what society expects of you . It’s ok to do what you love and make sacrifices to get you to where you want to go . Hard work pays off and I want my kids to grow up knowing that.  I love living the no boss life. The dreams are big yet the hustle is sold seperatly. I want my kids to always remember that their mommy was there to take them to school, pick them up, and always have the resources to create memories and experiences to do things together as a family.

This trip to Cancun was a HUGE eye opener for not just me , but for my husband! SO much is possible when you work hard and believe in yourself. My mission is to help woman crush their fears and chase their dreams all while creating a sustainable and healthier lifestyle change. My mission is to inspire other extra needs moms who have struggled with self doubt and show them that change is possible. Perfection is a joke. Its ok to fall and have a pity party for a few minutes. But with struggle comes strength .

Becoming a coach has allowed me to connect with other extra needs mom’s and help them feel good too . I’ve found that being part of an amazing community has been key to feeling like my head isn’t going to fall off. The support has been incredible. Without Beachbody, I wouldn’t be in the shape I am in today nor would I be able to find a way to earn an income doing something that fulfills my passion and purpose . I am blessed.

 

 

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